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Welcome to the #MadCovid Blog! Here we post our #MadCovidDiaries and any other madness and COVID related blogs!

Mad Covid Launches COVID-19 Recommendations for Mental Health Services

Mad Covid have created a series of broad recommendations for mental health services during the COVID-19 pandemic.  They focus specifically on services for people with pre-existing mental health conditions who have moderate, severe or long-term needs.   Read the recommendations in full here. You can use the #MadCovidRecommends to discuss the recommendations on social media. OurContinue reading “Mad Covid Launches COVID-19 Recommendations for Mental Health Services”

My week has mostly consisted of watching a lot of CNN, though hilariously, when the election was finally called for Biden, I only found out by the excited texts from my friends and family.

Sunitha‘s #MadCovidDiaries 10.11.2020 TW: Bereavement My week has mostly consisted of watching a lot of CNN and their ‘Key Race alerts’, though hilariously, when the election was finally called for Biden, I only found out by the excited texts from my friends and family. Although the whole situation has given me a lot of anxietyContinue reading “My week has mostly consisted of watching a lot of CNN, though hilariously, when the election was finally called for Biden, I only found out by the excited texts from my friends and family.”

Brave New World? #26

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 27.11.2020 Tony adds his 26th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License. We ask that you seekContinue reading “Brave New World? #26”

I am sat in my bedroom, my therapist is sat in their home study and we’re talking via a laptop. Sometimes the picture lags behind the sound, as if my therapists face is a simply pirated DVD film.

Heather’s #MadCovidDiaries 20.11.2020 TW: Sexual abuse I’m sat in a wood with David Attenborough. We first got to know each other when I was 5 years old. David ended one of his dinosaur programmes by concluding sadly that we’d never know what colour the dinosaurs were. I didn’t want David to be sad and sinceContinue reading “I am sat in my bedroom, my therapist is sat in their home study and we’re talking via a laptop. Sometimes the picture lags behind the sound, as if my therapists face is a simply pirated DVD film.”

They’re off-rolling us. To make room for people who are likely to be a quick fix, who’ll show that the service gets results.

@lucywriter‘s #MadCovidDiaries 19.11.2020 They’re off-rolling us. To make room for people who are likely to be a quick fix, who’ll show that the service gets results. How long does it take from the point of crisis to being considered stable enough to be discharged from community mental health services? According to my psychiatrist, it’s sixContinue reading “They’re off-rolling us. To make room for people who are likely to be a quick fix, who’ll show that the service gets results.”

As someone with lived experience, who has fed back into the system, I have never really felt like my voice has ever been heard. For the first time, I realised I was hearing the voices of people who needed to be heard.

Sunitha‘s #MadCovidDiaries 2.11.2020 TW: Bereavement It’s been about a week since the funeral of my uncle and today, in particular, I have been feeling very disconnected from his loss. In some ways, it’s similar to how I felt after the death of my other uncle last year – in that time away from them, softenedContinue reading “As someone with lived experience, who has fed back into the system, I have never really felt like my voice has ever been heard. For the first time, I realised I was hearing the voices of people who needed to be heard.”

The Second ‘Wave’: Mad COVID’s Symposium / #MadMeetUp – 28.10.2020

TW: Suicide Mad COVID held a #MadMeetUp / Symposium on the 28.10.2020, to discuss the impact COVID19 has had on the mad community. As well as looking back, we also explored what mental health services and others can do to support us during the impending second ‘wave’ and any further lockdowns.   It was an incrediblyContinue reading “The Second ‘Wave’: Mad COVID’s Symposium / #MadMeetUp – 28.10.2020”

“I haven’t left this desk since March. This week has really got to me – the amount of people being systematically failed.”

Lauren’s #MadCovidDiaries 1.11.2020 If you’ve enjoyed this vlog, please consider donating to our Hardship Fund for people with a mental health condition who are in financial need during COVID19. Mad Covid is an entirely unfunded group. This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License. We ask that you seek our permissionContinue reading ““I haven’t left this desk since March. This week has really got to me – the amount of people being systematically failed.””

I get myself as far away from mindfulness as possible, only to see it creep out in some other neoliberal guise and enter a space I love.

Darren’s #MadCovidDiaries 25.10.2020 Hi all. In the spirit of something I’ll mention further down, I’ll attempt to write something a little more positive this time for the diary entry. I am positivity! Smasher is the name of a puppy I named, my physical health got so bad I couldn’t keep her as couldn’t walk orContinue reading “I get myself as far away from mindfulness as possible, only to see it creep out in some other neoliberal guise and enter a space I love.”

When we speak about the arts, music and culture, it’s so important we acknowledge the freedom that it gives us in our lives. The ability to step back from reality, even if it’s for an hour or in some cases, the whole night.

Sunitha‘s #MadCovidDiaries 26.10.2020 TW: Bereavement What a long week, which has brought a whole host of challenges that I could not have predicted a week ago. My partner went into complete shutdown, barely interacting with me; my mum has been staying with us; I have barely been able to sleep, let alone function in aContinue reading “When we speak about the arts, music and culture, it’s so important we acknowledge the freedom that it gives us in our lives. The ability to step back from reality, even if it’s for an hour or in some cases, the whole night.”

Mental health services in general aren’t interested in our suffering. Not because individuals in the system don’t care. But resources are so thin that risk will win every time.

@BipolarBlogger’s #MadCovidDiaries 4.11.2020 TW: Suicide and Suicidal thoughts Risk versus suffering Recently I was in crisis. I went through a period of low mood, which was followed by a period of semi-psychotic persecutory thoughts, and then into a terrible phase of being unable to stop obsessing about running away from home and taking my ownContinue reading “Mental health services in general aren’t interested in our suffering. Not because individuals in the system don’t care. But resources are so thin that risk will win every time.”

‘Here comes lockdown two, and at least four more weeks of social isolation. And I feel… fine.’

@lucywriter‘s #MadCovidDiaries 4.11.2020 I remember March, the month the world changed. I was in crisis as lockdown began. And just as I was trying to get my head around the idea, there was a new headline on BBC News: ‘Social distancing may be needed for rest of year.’ ‘I can’t bear this,’ I posted inContinue reading “‘Here comes lockdown two, and at least four more weeks of social isolation. And I feel… fine.’”

I communicate with my Care-Coordinator on the telephone or videoconference. I can hear the other people in her office talking, and once heard a pigeon falling down her chimney when she was working from home.

@RelapseRover’s #MadCovidDiaries 29.10.2020 Navigating mental health support in a pandemic I have only ever met my care coordinator (CCO) once in person, after I was discharged from a two-month hospital admission in March. It was a week before lockdown. I haven’t ‘seen’ her since and barely spoke to anyone in person apart from shopkeepers andContinue reading “I communicate with my Care-Coordinator on the telephone or videoconference. I can hear the other people in her office talking, and once heard a pigeon falling down her chimney when she was working from home.”

In this pandemic, we might suddenly realise that the conditions we live in cause people to experience mental health illnesses

Sunitha‘s #MadCovidDiaries 19.10.2020 TW: Bereavement This week has been pretty difficult – my uncle died on Saturday. He’d been in hospital and it wasn’t the first time that we’d been waiting to see how his recovery would proceed after he’d been in hospital. In some ways, I’m grateful as the pandemic protected me from seeingContinue reading “In this pandemic, we might suddenly realise that the conditions we live in cause people to experience mental health illnesses”

Brave New World? #25

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 28.10.2020 Tony adds his 25th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License. We ask that you seekContinue reading “Brave New World? #25”

Mad Makers : Episode 2

Flower pressing & making cards Welcome back, makers! This is month we’re breaking things up into an easy-going 2 parter. Flower pressing, which takes 5-10 minutes (and about 2 weeks left alone to press), and making cards, which take about 5 minutes each. Thank you so much to everyone who engaged with our last episode,Continue reading “Mad Makers : Episode 2”

The news is driving me crazy, our government seems to have decided PR is more important than people’s lives and their livelihood.

Sunitha‘s #MadCovidDiaries 12.10.2020 I’m angry. I want to throw something. I feel like in spite of all the work I have done on myself in the past year, I am getting dragged back into the dysfunctional drama that causes me so much anxiety. I feel the increase in the emotional claustrophobia that threatens my existence, thatContinue reading “The news is driving me crazy, our government seems to have decided PR is more important than people’s lives and their livelihood.”

My motivation for volunteering during lockdown was almost completely selfish. That’s fine.

This blog is a reblog from Jo‘s personal blog! I am intensely interested in other people. This was even the case when I was sectioned on back in early 2017. Why were the other people on the ward there? What diagnoses did they have? What was their home situation? Did they get visitors? Who wereContinue reading “My motivation for volunteering during lockdown was almost completely selfish. That’s fine.”

Mad Covid’s Alternative Christmas Gift List: Supporting MadArts and Crafters

By Robyn Timoclea Let’s face it, 2020 hasn’t been kind to any of us. There’s been a lot of talk about the impact on the nation’s mental health but those of us who have been mad for a long time will know that talk doesn’t mean anything. With another impending recession and increasing unemployment onContinue reading “Mad Covid’s Alternative Christmas Gift List: Supporting MadArts and Crafters”

If I’m supposed to survive the impending feeling of doom that has been created by the pandemic, I am going to have to find things to look forward to doing.

Sunitha‘s #MadCovidDiaries 6.10.2020 The last few days have been a real strain on my sense of being. The way I visualise it is a tug of war inside my head between all my different needs. A great example is that on one hand, I am still doing basic functions like eating and on the otherContinue reading “If I’m supposed to survive the impending feeling of doom that has been created by the pandemic, I am going to have to find things to look forward to doing.”

Brave New World? #24

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 15.10.2020 Tony adds his 24th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. This fortnight, Tony’s work featured in Amateur Photographer! This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivativesContinue reading “Brave New World? #24”

It’s incredibly infuriating that young people, who have been through so much already with the A Level fiasco, are now having to go through university lockdowns

Jo’s #MadCovidDiaries 10.10.2020 Jo’s vlog is out now!  If you’ve enjoyed this vlog, please consider donating to our Hardship Fund for people with a mental health condition who are in financial need during COVID19. Mad Covid is an entirely unfunded group. This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License. We askContinue reading “It’s incredibly infuriating that young people, who have been through so much already with the A Level fiasco, are now having to go through university lockdowns”

Zoom WRAP: “Despite being alone in our living rooms, we bonded.”

Heather’s #MadCovidDiaries – 6th of October 2020 Whole ass-ing a Wellness Recovery Action Plan. I’ve spent the last 5 years facilitating Wellness Recovery Action Plan Groups. I’m going to preface this entry by explaining why many peoples shoulders go up around their ears at the mention of Wellness Recovery Action Planning. It’s understandable. Wellness RecoveryContinue reading “Zoom WRAP: “Despite being alone in our living rooms, we bonded.””

I only now realise that my whole life has been this internal struggle between the person that society wants me to be and the person that I am.

Sunitha‘s #MadCovidDiaries 28.9.2020 On the way to work today, I had some idea about what I wanted to write about but right now, sitting here in the semi dark, I am struggling to recall or function when all I am able to think about is how much I want to sleep. Last week was reallyContinue reading “I only now realise that my whole life has been this internal struggle between the person that society wants me to be and the person that I am.”

I feel the fear of this never going away. I feel the fear of the impact of the actions of others on us all.

@Outdoorperscrip #MadCovidDiaries – 6th of October 2020 Content warning: Why do I find it so difficult when people break rules? I know it’s something I’ve always struggled with. It’s made me unpopular in work settings when I’ve pulled people up on not doing things properly or rule breaking. I’ve often worked in settings where theContinue reading “I feel the fear of this never going away. I feel the fear of the impact of the actions of others on us all.”

“What are you so happy about? People like you don’t get to be happy in life.’

Heather’s #MadCovidDiaries – 5th of October 2020 Content warning: Abuse One day in my teenage years, I came home excited. I’d been at work experience and I returned brimming full of stories of this new world of work. In this world, people joked and turned the radio up and wore cool shoes, just like myContinue reading ““What are you so happy about? People like you don’t get to be happy in life.’”

Brave New World? #23

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 05.10.2020 Tony adds his 23rd instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. This week Tony has an article in the Derbyshire Times! This work is licensed under a CreativeContinue reading “Brave New World? #23”

We’ve reached a critical point. A decision needs to be made about moving teaching online at universities.

Jo’s #MadCovidDiaries 27.9.2020 Jo’s vlog is out now!  If you’ve enjoyed this vlog, please consider donating to our Hardship Fund for people with a mental health condition who are in financial need during COVID19. Mad Covid is an entirely unfunded group. This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License. We askContinue reading “We’ve reached a critical point. A decision needs to be made about moving teaching online at universities.”

Mad Makers: Episode 1

Matchbox Shrines! Welcome to our first episode of Mad Makers! This tutorial is for making matchbox shrines. It takes roughly 20-30 minutes, although you can make it at whatever pace you’re comfortable with. Below is a kit list, a link to the video tutorial, and finally a few pictures for reference. We hope you enjoyContinue reading “Mad Makers: Episode 1”

Brave New World? #22

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 22.9.2020 Tony adds his 22nd instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. This week Tony was on BBC East Midlands Today! Photo’s from Tony’s day trip to Staffordshire: Wildlife,Continue reading “Brave New World? #22”

PIP in a pandemic

I’d never heard of PIP before I realised I was eligible – at least 3 years, I might add, after I should have made a claim. Only after I’d begun the application process did I begin to tune into the conversations about unfair and discriminatory assessments. Suddenly it was all I was hearing or talkingContinue reading “PIP in a pandemic”

The simple courtesy of wearing a mask is something autistic people do invisibly all the time, often at great psychological cost.

Hope’s #MadCovidDiaries Tuesday 14.8.2020 TW autism and rape/sexual abuse ‘In wise love each divines the high secret self of the other and, refusing to believe in the mere daily self, creates a mirror where the lover or the beloved sees an image to copy in daily life. Love also creates the mask’. — W. B.Continue reading “The simple courtesy of wearing a mask is something autistic people do invisibly all the time, often at great psychological cost.”

Brave New World? #21

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 16.9.2020 Tony adds his 21st instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. This week Tony was on BBC Derby radio talking about everything he’s up to, including Mad Covid!Continue reading “Brave New World? #21”

I miss connecting with others in person and I fear for a disconnected future, where those of us with disabilities feel excluded from society.

@outdoorperscrip’s #MadCovidDiaries 14.9.2020  What usually helps you when you’re feeling like this? This is possibly one of the most used sentences in mental health support. I wonder how many patients have suddenly found the answer to their distress is solved by that one simple question? I’ve been asked it a few times lately and toContinue reading “I miss connecting with others in person and I fear for a disconnected future, where those of us with disabilities feel excluded from society.”

The outside world for me has always felt scary. In that respect, the pandemic has set me back.

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 31.8.2020  This week has been almost normal. I saw my family on the weekend, had lunch with my mum’s cousin and peeled a lot of apples. Okay, the last part is definitely not a normal week but there was something about peeling apples that felt vaguely cathartic, something that I imagine normal peopleContinue reading “The outside world for me has always felt scary. In that respect, the pandemic has set me back.”

I felt a pang of sadness waving my daughter off and a flood of worry for the world she’s growing up in. Will it harm them more or less, the fact that our “new normal” will simply be their “normal”? It’s all they’ll have ever known.

I felt a pang of sadness waving my daughter off and a flood of worry for the world she’s growing up in. Will it harm them more or less, the fact that our “new normal” will simply be their “normal”? It’s all they’ll have ever known.

Human Bean’s #MadCovidDiaries, Week 24: August 31st to September 6th 2020

Brave New World? #20

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 7.9.2020 Tony adds his 20th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. This week, Tony’s photos were chosen for an exhibition at the Canal Visitors Centre, Chesterfield. They wereContinue reading “Brave New World? #20”

COVID19: At its peak, around a thousand loved ones dying became an everyday phenomenon.

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 25.9.2020  Interactions and friendships with people have always been a challenge for me. There are times when I speak to people and all the anxiety kind of disappears into the background. Other times, I realise that the interactions make me feel hyper aware and make me consider all the things that I probablyContinue reading “COVID19: At its peak, around a thousand loved ones dying became an everyday phenomenon.”

My daughter is really excited about school and I know being with her friends again will be good, even while I am angry that it is mandatory to send them back. I question the morality of trying to get us all “back to normal” with the virus still raging through the population.

My daughter is really excited about school and I know being with her friends again will be good, even while I am angry that it is mandatory to send them back. I question the morality of trying to get us all “back to normal” with the virus still raging through the population.

Human Bean’s #MadCovidDiaries, Week 23: August 24th to August 30th 2020

This will pass

This will pass

@DyslxicRant’s Photographic #MadCovidDiaries

Drinking always led me into all sorts of situations, and whilst I don’t regret the past, I know that it was a form of numbing the pain inside.

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 17.8.2020  There’s an element within me that feels like I have made a huge jump from where I was at the beginning of lockdown or even a month or so ago to where I am now. There have been a lot of repetitive feelings and I feel like I’m living days over andContinue reading “Drinking always led me into all sorts of situations, and whilst I don’t regret the past, I know that it was a form of numbing the pain inside.”

I’ve found that this week, like the first few months of the pandemic, the reality of what we are living through keeps hitting me over and over again. It really feels like nothing will ever be the same again.

I’ve found that this week, like the first few months of the pandemic, the reality of what we are living through keeps hitting me over and over again. It really feels like nothing will ever be the same again.

Human Bean’s #MadCovidDiaries, Week 22: August 17th 2020 to August 23rd 2020

Brave New World? #19

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 24.8.2020 Tony adds his 19th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. This week, Tony has been featured in his local newspaper here and on the BBC. This workContinue reading “Brave New World? #19”

I kept expecting someone to label me ‘attention-seeking’ or warn me I shouldn’t be in Accident and Emergency with the current COVID situation. Instead it was all offers of hot chocolate and reassurances.

@Chlowinfield1’s #MadCovidDiaries 22.8.2020 TW: Self-harm I wrote most of this blog during my first overnight stay in A&E for mental health, and my first A&E visit at all since Covid. I haven’t written much recently, the depression has got so bad I can’t seem to think of coherent words, but I needed something to focusContinue reading “I kept expecting someone to label me ‘attention-seeking’ or warn me I shouldn’t be in Accident and Emergency with the current COVID situation. Instead it was all offers of hot chocolate and reassurances.”

I hit refresh on the BBC news website for the 20th time in a row. My partner tells me to stop obsessing but I can’t help it. This is how I have been throughout lockdown.

@outdoorperscrip‘s #MadCovidDiaries 18.8.2020  I hit refresh on the BBC news website for the 20th time in a row. My partner tells me to stop obsessing but I can’t help it. This is how I have been throughout lockdown. My reason for obsessing on this occasion was due to the A Level results disaster. My daughterContinue reading “I hit refresh on the BBC news website for the 20th time in a row. My partner tells me to stop obsessing but I can’t help it. This is how I have been throughout lockdown.”

The shared trauma of living through this situation has allowed me to feel connections with people that would otherwise be on a completely different wavelength

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 10.8.2020  Well, what a full week. I can’t remember the last time in ages where I felt like I had fed all the different parts of myself: I’ve had time connecting with friends, focused on myself as well as the things I care about. Sometimes I struggle because if I do too muchContinue reading “The shared trauma of living through this situation has allowed me to feel connections with people that would otherwise be on a completely different wavelength”

Brave New World? #18

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 12.8.2020 Tony adds his 18th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. Celebrating the life of Chris Ledger Chris was an artist and major advocate for mental health andContinue reading “Brave New World? #18”

In this pandemic world, I have had moments of crisis but my past experiences really made me reluctant to reach out for help.

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 3.8.2020  I’m back home and for the first time in a long time, it really felt like coming home. Of course, I experience anxiety here, lying awake in the middle of the night thinking the house noises means someone might be in the house or the depression clouding over me because I can’tContinue reading “In this pandemic world, I have had moments of crisis but my past experiences really made me reluctant to reach out for help.”

I have a couple of five word slogans for you, Boris; The North is fierce hearted. We won’t be divided now. We choose justice and peace over lies.

Heather‘s #MadCovidDiaries 2.8.2020  My grandparents have lived in Bradford all their life. Grandma worked on the glove counter of Brown and Muffs; which sounds like a euphemism but was a department store that formed part of her glamorous career girl history. Grandad’s father was a music hall pianist, he liked to fill a bath tubContinue reading “I have a couple of five word slogans for you, Boris; The North is fierce hearted. We won’t be divided now. We choose justice and peace over lies.”

When I consume news stories or social media, the world ending in my lifetime feels like an inevitable reality.

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 27.7.2020  I’m back at my parents’ house for the first time this year and it’s been almost six months since I last saw them. Whilst I am mostly enjoying the experience, I also feel incredibly overwhelmed today and really feel like I haven’t had the space to decompress without them. The last coupleContinue reading “When I consume news stories or social media, the world ending in my lifetime feels like an inevitable reality.”

Brave New World? #17

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 3.8.2020 Tony adds his 17th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License. We ask that you seekContinue reading “Brave New World? #17”

What if there is no “after COVID”?

I feel like this’ll never be ‘over’ and the future just melts together.

What if there is no “after covid”?

Human Bean’s #MadCovidDiaries, Week 18: July 20th to July 26th

Returning back to normal isn’t really an option…I am considering all sorts of things that seemed impossible to me before. I want to live in a world that considers all the diverse needs of individuals in its society.

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 20.7.2020  I’ve finally got some time off for the next two weeks and especially this week, I am going to focus on having time for myself. I have recognised that burn out for me is something that happens even when I have the best intentions ; it has as much to do withContinue reading “Returning back to normal isn’t really an option…I am considering all sorts of things that seemed impossible to me before. I want to live in a world that considers all the diverse needs of individuals in its society.”

Brave New World? #16

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 24.7.2020 Tony adds his 16th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License. We ask that you seekContinue reading “Brave New World? #16”

I feel so annoyed that many of my friends think people like me are being too anxious and just need help to be less afraid. I feel that I have an accurate view of the COVID risk and they have kidded themselves into being less afraid because they want to “get back to normal”.

I feel so annoyed that many of my friends think people like me are being too anxious and just need help to be less afraid. I feel that I have an accurate view of the COVID risk and they have kidded themselves into being less afraid because they want to “get back to normal”.

I fear the next year or so there’s going to be such a huge crisis with society failing those who fall deeper into poverty and grief, and that many many people will suffer alone.

Darren’s #MadCovidDiaries #MadDiaries 16.7.2020 TW: Suicide and Self Harm Chronic insomnia is a real arse. ‘Real’ as it seems to be swept under every bloody carpet. I tell support workers, previous CPN’s etc about this problem and well they don’t want to talk about that they want to talk about anxiety or depression instead. IContinue reading “I fear the next year or so there’s going to be such a huge crisis with society failing those who fall deeper into poverty and grief, and that many many people will suffer alone.”

These are unprecedented times so I constantly have to focus on being kind to myself but that requires a lot of rewiring.

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 14.7.2020  I sat down to write the last few days and felt little to no motivation as there was too much going on in my head. Even today, I feel a little conflicted and confused. One part of me is super excited as I will be seeing my parents in a few weeks’Continue reading “These are unprecedented times so I constantly have to focus on being kind to myself but that requires a lot of rewiring.”

I’m in quarantine. It’s not a good place to be, because its scary, plagues are scary. Government needs to take responsibility for putting our lives in danger.

Michelle‘s @DyslxicRant’s #MadCovidDiaries Michelle has been creating vlogs about her experiences of COVID19 during Lockdown. Here you can catch up on some! We hope to feature more of Michelle’s work over the next few weeks. This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License. We ask that you seek our permission beforeContinue reading “I’m in quarantine. It’s not a good place to be, because its scary, plagues are scary. Government needs to take responsibility for putting our lives in danger.”

Brave New World? #15

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 17.7.2020 Tony adds his 15th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License. We ask that you seekContinue reading “Brave New World? #15”

I feel like we’re living in such a brutal world and I didn’t even have the resilience to cope with the old one let alone this.

Human Bean’s #MadCovidDiaries, Week 16: July 6th to July 12th TW: Cancer I came out to my mum as non binary this week. I also told a few more people about my plans to change my name. I feel really silly about it (internalised transphobia or a hangover from being stigmatised for BPD shifts inContinue reading “I feel like we’re living in such a brutal world and I didn’t even have the resilience to cope with the old one let alone this.”

There are lots of things I can’t do. I don’t get to drink, I don’t get to miss sleep…I’ve had to make big decisions about my life.

Jo’s #MadCovidDiaries 16.7.2020 Jo’s 17th vlog is out now!  Jo speaks about having difficulty sleeping at the moment, which is a big warning sign for her. She also reflects on all the things she has to do just to stay well and the big decisions she’s had to take in life to stay well. She’sContinue reading “There are lots of things I can’t do. I don’t get to drink, I don’t get to miss sleep…I’ve had to make big decisions about my life.”

Virtual Mental Health Support in COVID19: I worry that digital technology is being seen as an acceptable alternative, rather than the temporary ‘make do’ solution that it was initially intended to be.

Virtual mental health support in Covid 19 @outdoorprescrip‘s #MadCovidDiaries 8.7.2020 – this is a reblog from their fantastic blog I am one of the lucky ones. I’ve received support during Covid-19 virtually. I appreciate I am lucky to have received any support at all as I know many have had nothing. A virtual interaction this weekContinue reading “Virtual Mental Health Support in COVID19: I worry that digital technology is being seen as an acceptable alternative, rather than the temporary ‘make do’ solution that it was initially intended to be.”

WHY MAD PEOPLE SWEAR

 G’s #MadDiary #MadCovidDiaries Inspired by the book Why Mummy Drinks by Gillian Sims January 2020  My alarm goes off. BOLLOCKS. I feel knackered and I realise I’ve only had 2 hours sleep AGAIN! I wonder why I set my BLOODY alarm and then I remember that I have to go FUCKIN outside to see CPNContinue reading “WHY MAD PEOPLE SWEAR”

At the beginning of all this, I was scared of Lockdown, but now I sometimes feel scared of it ending?!

@MyNewMummyLife‘s #MadCovidDiaries 9.7.2020 Lockdown Update: Week 12,13,14,15??? I’ve lost count. It’s been a while since I wrote something for #MadCovidDiaries. As a family, we’ve just been plodding along the best we can. My husband was made redundant, so he’s spending time with us all, which is nice. But we do have some tough days withContinue reading “At the beginning of all this, I was scared of Lockdown, but now I sometimes feel scared of it ending?!”

Health professionals get frustrated with me and misinterpret my attempts at communication. The thought of talking to a doctor now brings a wave of panic because my experience this year has been so terrible.

Human Bean‘s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 13: June 15th to June 21st TW: iatrogenic trauma, ableism  It’s diary day. I don’t feel like talking today. I guess that’s a good reason to have a set day to update, it’s more representative of my mood than if I just updated when I felt like it.  Looong exhale. Continue reading “Health professionals get frustrated with me and misinterpret my attempts at communication. The thought of talking to a doctor now brings a wave of panic because my experience this year has been so terrible.”

I think everyday about other people suffering with abuse and more than ever in the current situation it renders me speechless, heartbroken and angry.

Darren’s #MadCovidDiaries, 29.06.20 For the first time in my life I’m able to use the word depression as a descriptive term to apply to my self. I’ve been experimenting with using this with friends and it seems to be going ok. I’ve had both chronic depression as a diagnosis and depression from the same GP,Continue reading “I think everyday about other people suffering with abuse and more than ever in the current situation it renders me speechless, heartbroken and angry.”

The trigger for a lot of my difficulties in the Coronavirus crisis has been the feeling of the unknown, which hasn’t been helped by the lack of leadership from the government.

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 7.7.2020  What a difference two weeks make? In the last ten days, it’s been a rollercoaster of unexpected life events, which has left me feeling both super hopeful and super anxious. The most prominent item is that I am now getting paid for some work that I was previously doing as voluntary. It’llContinue reading “The trigger for a lot of my difficulties in the Coronavirus crisis has been the feeling of the unknown, which hasn’t been helped by the lack of leadership from the government.”

Brave New World? #14

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 8.7.2020 Tony adds his 14th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. Photos from the Belper Moo’s This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License.Continue reading “Brave New World? #14”

It’s kind of interesting but grim to see how the soaps are dealing with covid 19. It’s weird how seeing something fictionalised can make a thing feel more real.

Human Bean‘s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 15: June 29th to July 5th Well, after my post last week saying nothing will change for us, we made a spur of the moment decision to come on a trip. I’ll explain.  The rules changed on Saturday 4th July to say you are allowed to visit family overnight. SinceContinue reading “It’s kind of interesting but grim to see how the soaps are dealing with covid 19. It’s weird how seeing something fictionalised can make a thing feel more real.”

The transition out of lockdown is causing me a lot of anxiety. The risk is still there but now we’re being asked to act like it isn’t. It was a decision made for the economy and not for keeping people safe.

Human Bean‘s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 14: June 22nd to June 28th  Do you ever look back at your past self and think wow, I was a real person in the world: I wore that red dress in Italy, I kissed that girl, in a way that you don’t feel real in your life now orContinue reading “The transition out of lockdown is causing me a lot of anxiety. The risk is still there but now we’re being asked to act like it isn’t. It was a decision made for the economy and not for keeping people safe.”

Sunsets

Steve’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 1.7.2020 Steve shares some more of his amazing collection of photographs on the topic ‘Sunsets’! He’s happy to receive suggestions about photo topics – he has a big collection of photographs he’d like to share with everyone.  Thank you Steve :  ) This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0Continue reading “Sunsets”

The assessment didn’t last long. I was still certain I would be home soon. I was wrong. They had sectioned me.

Alison L’s #MadCovidDiaries, 22.06.20 Crisis After Crisis, This Time Covid-19 Sent Things In The Wrong Direction TW: Mentions self-harm and suicide. *Names of staff have been changed Bex the Mental Health Nurse from the homebased treatment team was sat in my living room asking me if I would consider a voluntary hospital admission. It wasContinue reading “The assessment didn’t last long. I was still certain I would be home soon. I was wrong. They had sectioned me.”

Since lockdown began, my bright, carefree, sociable girl has had her life turned upside down. Her bedroom is her classroom; her schoolwork set online.

Lucy’s #MadCovidDiaries 25.6.2020  She’s not a talker, my nine-year-old daughter. Not about her feelings, anyway. Even when she was in Reception, her teacher commented on how she never cried. ‘Sometimes I can see she really wants to,’ she said, ‘but she won’t let herself.’ She’s like me in that respect. I grew up keeping myContinue reading “Since lockdown began, my bright, carefree, sociable girl has had her life turned upside down. Her bedroom is her classroom; her schoolwork set online.”

Brave New World? #13

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 26.6.2020 Tony adds his 13th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. This week, Tony has been making more masks from his photos! Photos from the Belper Moo’s OnContinue reading “Brave New World? #13”

I Was Recovering Before the Pandemic but Now I’m Stark Raving Mad

@tentaeminty’s #MadCovidDiaries, 21.06.20 I Was Recovering Before the Pandemic but Now I’m Stark Raving Mad – And It’s Not the Virus Please note that this article has old lockdown rules within it; this was written over a time period where the rules were changing. Please look up the current lockdown rules for your area. I’veContinue reading “I Was Recovering Before the Pandemic but Now I’m Stark Raving Mad”

Anorexia recovery prepared me for this pandemic, our young people need support to get through.

An anonymous #MadCovidDiaries, 21.06.20 TW: Eating disorders When I was 15 and busily preparing for my GCSEs, I was diagnosed with anorexia. I was scared, I was lost, but I was going into school. A teacher alerted myself and my family to the fact that anorexia was a problem for me. The teacher linked usContinue reading “Anorexia recovery prepared me for this pandemic, our young people need support to get through.”

I’m sad that mental illness has made me so unwell and things have got so much harder since lock-down. I’m sad that I can’t remember a time where I could just sit and relax…

Anonymous’ #MadCovidDiaries, 21.06.20 TW: References to self-harm, including methods, discussed throughout. Why has it taken walking around the hospital grounds at night to make me feel sad? It’s just gone 11pm Tuesday night and I’m walking around the local hospital grounds. Mum’s waiting in the carpark, I’m not a patient – not yet anyway, IContinue reading “I’m sad that mental illness has made me so unwell and things have got so much harder since lock-down. I’m sad that I can’t remember a time where I could just sit and relax…”

Every time I read the news or Twitter, I recognise that we have such a long way to go…sometimes I feel like all I want to do is pack my bags, go home and retreat from society.

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries, 23.06.20 CW: Mentions self harm and alcohol briefly Today, I feel indecisive on how to start writing this. For me, I am struggling with a whole host of internal worries and fears, which makes me think what I really need now is help. You know when you’ve experienced long term mental health illnesses,Continue reading “Every time I read the news or Twitter, I recognise that we have such a long way to go…sometimes I feel like all I want to do is pack my bags, go home and retreat from society.”


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