The more lockdown is eased, the more my anxiety rises. It’s going to be a long time before I stop staying alert.

Hattie’s #MadCovidDiaries 2.6.2020 The more lockdown is eased, the more my anxiety rises. It’s going to be a long time before I stop staying alert. I have obsessive compulsive disorder, and if there’s one thing I’m an expert at, it’s staying alert. Right now we are living though a real life enactment of one ofContinue reading “The more lockdown is eased, the more my anxiety rises. It’s going to be a long time before I stop staying alert.”

It is dislocating, going from a weekly face to face appointment to doing it over the phone. I find it disconcerting that I cannot see my therapist’s face. I cannot know what she is thinking. I can’t read her.

Ruby’s #MadCovidDiaries 15.4.2020 I thought I would feel worse than I do. Am I a fraud?  Therapy is strange. In January I began a 7 month course of weekly sessions through the NHS. With a more specific focus on OCD and my experience of it. It is dislocating, going from a weekly face to faceContinue reading “It is dislocating, going from a weekly face to face appointment to doing it over the phone. I find it disconcerting that I cannot see my therapist’s face. I cannot know what she is thinking. I can’t read her.”