Secret Meetings: I’m on the margins staring at the academy’s ivory towers and there’s no door let alone window in sight.

TW: Swearing Bethan‘s #MadCovidDiaries 22.5.2020  Being left out is a big thing for me.  I’ve felt like an outsider many times in my life, starting quite early when I moved schools when I was 6 – from England to Wales.  I was kept down a year, was in a Welsh school when I couldn’t speakContinue reading “Secret Meetings: I’m on the margins staring at the academy’s ivory towers and there’s no door let alone window in sight.”

COVID is casting the choices between health and wealth in the starkest possible terms.

David Mordecai’s #MadCovidDiaries diary – 19.05.2020 I am in Toronto, Canada, and our political leadership would like us to believe that we are far enough along in our response to COVID to end our shutdown. My garden business was allowed to resume operations on May 4th. That’s shifted a lot in my life and isContinue reading “COVID is casting the choices between health and wealth in the starkest possible terms.”

#MentalHealthAwarenessWeek2020: I find the whole thing extremely hollow

Jo’s #MadCovidDiaries 18.5.2020 TW: Swearing. Jo’s ninth vlog is out now!  Jo critiques mental health awareness week and doesn’t hold back! She speaks about celebrities and organisations who use it to promote themselves and workplaces who place the onus for dealing with mental health on the individual rather than making workplaces healthier. As Jo say’sContinue reading “#MentalHealthAwarenessWeek2020: I find the whole thing extremely hollow”

Psychosis is a real illness hidden away by decades of stigma and misinformation – and buried further underground amongst the empty promises and platitudes of Mental Health Awareness Week.

TW: Psychosis @mugamnesty‘s #MadCovidDiaries 19.5.2020 The Mechanisms of Psychosis Given that psychosis is one of the most ignored and maligned aspects of mental health knowledge amongst the general public, I’d like to offer you my take on the matter – by explaining exactly how psychosis took hold of my mind and turned the world upsideContinue reading “Psychosis is a real illness hidden away by decades of stigma and misinformation – and buried further underground amongst the empty promises and platitudes of Mental Health Awareness Week.”

Waiting lists are months long and racial disparities are ignored. Mental health awareness week is just not enough.

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 18.5.2020  I don’t really know where to start. After a very challenging week, the weekend for me has been a lot of me trying to contain my anger and having these beautiful moments of hope. In some ways, I’m starting the cycle again of settling into this new normal but it really overwhelmsContinue reading “Waiting lists are months long and racial disparities are ignored. Mental health awareness week is just not enough.”

The healing power of therapy comes from a secure and trusting relationship between therapist and client, Covid-19 induced separation is the antithesis to this.

Psychotherapy and lock-down, by Anonymous 13.5.2020 “Being forced to relocate one’s practice, having phone sessions, and responding to personal questions are all indications of the changed treatment frame, conscious manifestations of the boundary alterations that take place, and a reminder that psychotherapy can never be business as usual after a shared trauma of this magnitude.”Continue reading “The healing power of therapy comes from a secure and trusting relationship between therapist and client, Covid-19 induced separation is the antithesis to this.”

Watching the @MadCovid and #MadCovidDiaries community grow has been an absolute privilege and life raft for me.

Bethan’s #MadCovidDiaries 15.5.2020  Being behind the scenes helping the cogs turn has been my kind of thing for a long while. I guess that’s what I’ve been doing with #MadCovidDiaries until now.  Hi world, I’m Bethan, the diary uploader, editor, picture selector, email replier etc etc!  Watching the @MadCovid and #MadCovidDiaries community grow has beenContinue reading “Watching the @MadCovid and #MadCovidDiaries community grow has been an absolute privilege and life raft for me.”

Living a Raisin-Free Life

@mugamnesty’s #MadCovidDiaries 12.5.2020 Like the majority of people reading this, I’ve seen a fair number of psychiatrists over the years. With the exception of a few individuals, the care I received from NHS mental health services frequently left a lot to be desired. I am immensely grateful to my family and close friends, who helpedContinue reading “Living a Raisin-Free Life”

The cogs in my head have been in overdrive; what life do I want after this crisis is over. Where does my energy go? What do I care about?

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 10.5.2020  I’m feeling angry today, terrified, anxious. What did I expect after watching the waffling from our Prime Minster? I called my mum and I got really emotional, especially when her response was very much well we can’t be in lockdown forever. Last week I told her she couldn’t come to see me,Continue reading “The cogs in my head have been in overdrive; what life do I want after this crisis is over. Where does my energy go? What do I care about?”

COVID19: When it’s someone you know it becomes personal.

Jo’s #MadCovidDiaries 11.5.2020 TW: COVID death, swearing. Jo’s eighth vlog is out now!  Jo’s out in the park on her daily permitted exercise. She talks about how angry and sad she’s feeling after hearing of the death of one of her work colleagues, particularly after Boris Johnson’s announcement on Sunday the 10th of May. SheContinue reading “COVID19: When it’s someone you know it becomes personal.”

My stress bucket has felt like an ember, turning into a smouldering fire and yesterday finally turning into an explosion.

@outdoorperscrip‘s #MadCovidDiaries 6.5.2020 The explosion of the stress bucket So yesterday things sort of unravelled. In mental health services they often like to talk about the stress bucket, how it fills up and you need to find ways of making holes in it to let the water out to stop it from overflowing. Recently my stressContinue reading “My stress bucket has felt like an ember, turning into a smouldering fire and yesterday finally turning into an explosion.”

My OCD: Seeing Red

Hope’s #MadCovidDiaries – 6.5.2020 TW: OCD, sexual abuse, STDs, self-harm, hallucinations, disordered thinking After the recent discourse surrounding OCD and the pandemic— which, in short, seems to be suggesting it is helpful or desirable— I decided that this week I would write about my experience of OCD and why this discourse is harmful. Many membersContinue reading “My OCD: Seeing Red”

Waiting on the Cliff Edge: The crisis of quarantine for the mentally ill.

Retropxssy‘s #MadCovidDiaries TW: Suicide, Anorexia, COVID deaths I feel as though I have been left to die. I am one of the 1 in 4 people in the world affected by a  mental health problem. ‘Normally’, despite diagnoses of complex trauma, anorexia, anxiety and depression, I’m pretty high functioning. A lot of the time, aContinue reading “Waiting on the Cliff Edge: The crisis of quarantine for the mentally ill.”

BAME key workers from working class backgrounds are falling ill and dying in disproportion to the rest of the population.

By way of introduction  My name is Lol Benson, I am scouse and a middle aged white man who works at Manchester Uni as a senior lecturer in healthcare management. I first developed depression in 2010, triggered by the bereavement of my mum Kathy Benson and then over the following three years I began toContinue reading “BAME key workers from working class backgrounds are falling ill and dying in disproportion to the rest of the population.”

Quarantine eliminates hours of checking from my daily life. I don’t have to pack a bag, lock any doors, or turn off electrical appliances.

TW: Suicide, Eating Disorder, OCD. @mugamnesty’s #MadCovidDiaries 2.5.2020 Approaching work – just around the corner. Beloved violin, on my back, it’s there, check, got it. Backpack, yes, got it. Was there a third item? Why would I bring a third item to work? Can I see myself with a third item? If a colleague sawContinue reading “Quarantine eliminates hours of checking from my daily life. I don’t have to pack a bag, lock any doors, or turn off electrical appliances.”

Squabbling and factions get in the way of progress!

Jo’s #MadCovidDiaries 4.5.2020 Jo’s seventh vlog is out now!  Jo talks about how p*ssed off she is about the factions and squabbling, particularly on twitter. She mentions a recent blog she published with others on @MadCovid in response to an article in the Guardian, which has had a lot of attention. On a positive note,Continue reading “Squabbling and factions get in the way of progress!”

COVID19: The most devastating impact on my mental health has been to witness humanity’s greed.

Matthew Jackman The mental health and service user experience during COVID19 in Australia: from personal to professional disaster. I write alongside my heater in the lounge room as the weather reaches 8 degrees centigrade on a dreary and rainy winter like day in Melbourne, Australia. Working from home has been a struggle, as I gatherContinue reading “COVID19: The most devastating impact on my mental health has been to witness humanity’s greed.”

Depression drops like the dead canary down the mine, alerting me of the toxic environment I’ve found myself in

TW: Abuse   Jemma’s #MadCovidDiaries 27.4.2020 2 weeks ago I thought I was cured. I was both looking forward to (and low-key fearing) a discharge, I’d survived my historical ‘Mad March’ with not so much of a hiccup. I mean I was raging everyday from the news and injustices being reported but pre covid I’d beenContinue reading “Depression drops like the dead canary down the mine, alerting me of the toxic environment I’ve found myself in”

Difficulties and uncertainties getting help in a mental health crisis.

To date, we’ve done 16 interviews with people using mental health services across the country. This is the second in a series of blogs highlighting key issues that they’re facing as a result of COVID19. Some of the people we interviewed gave consent to publish their interview in full, which will be available to readContinue reading “Difficulties and uncertainties getting help in a mental health crisis.”

I want to scream and shout, which I did manage to do when accidentally watching the news. Maybe I’ll make it my new hobby, shouting at the nonsense people say, particularly politicians.

TW: Thoughts of physical violence Sunitha’s third #MadCovidDiaries 3.5.2020  It’s been more than two weeks since I last wrote. Not sure why, mixture of very good mood periods where I felt I wanted to be free from technology and low mood points where I just wanted to binge watch some terrible TV show, to escapeContinue reading “I want to scream and shout, which I did manage to do when accidentally watching the news. Maybe I’ll make it my new hobby, shouting at the nonsense people say, particularly politicians.”