If you want to do us a kindness, find another way to plug the gaps. Vote for policies that prioritise the NHS and local government funding and challenge the austerity agenda.

Charlotte‘s #MadCovidDiaries 18.5.2020 Lockdown Mental Health Awareness Week So Mental Health Awareness Week has rolled around again. I’m afraid I’m one of those jaded people with severe mental illness who feels that these days and weeks ring somewhat hollow, raising “awareness” without improving services or doing much to impact on the lives of people withContinue reading “If you want to do us a kindness, find another way to plug the gaps. Vote for policies that prioritise the NHS and local government funding and challenge the austerity agenda.”

#StayAlert: The pushing back of responsibility onto the individual echoes neoliberal health and welfare policies.

Charlotte‘s #MadCovidDiaries 10.5.2020 Don’t you hate it when a partner, friend or (worse) a manager says to you, “Listen, we need to talk later. I’ll tell you what it’s about then.” Argh! Terror! What can they possibly want to say that’s so important they can’t just say now? It must be something awful! Is heContinue reading “#StayAlert: The pushing back of responsibility onto the individual echoes neoliberal health and welfare policies.”

Lockdown: Week….I have no idea!

Charlotte’s #MadCovidDiaries Diaries 29.4.2020 Last time I wrote I was quite pessimistic, thinking that my mental health wouldn’t hold up much longer under lockdown. I was, initially, wrong. I had several weeks of really good mental health, just feeling “me”. Not anxious, not depressed, not hypomanic, not even feeling the need to check in withContinue reading “Lockdown: Week….I have no idea!”

On Psychosis and Global Events

TW: Suicide M’s #MadCovidDiaries 27.4.20 Many of us can remember where we were and what we were doing as history’s most notable events unfolded. I can remember exactly where I stood the morning after Trump was elected. It was a normal morning before a day at university. From my kitchen in the UK, there wasn’tContinue reading “On Psychosis and Global Events”

These days, the rising sun sometimes brings heavy feelings of sadness and dread.

Eva’s #MadCovidDiaries Diary 24.4.2020 TW: Sixth Week in Lockdown Started off the day in a slump. Sleep erratic. Took a Zopi around 4am. Fall asleep reading a book. A Thousand Splendid Sun’s. Woke up on top of it.  As my eyes settled in the daylight, I groaned. These days, the rising sun sometimes brings heavy feelings of sadnessContinue reading “These days, the rising sun sometimes brings heavy feelings of sadness and dread.”

Difficulties accessing, reviewing and monitoring medication during COVID19, is compromising the safety of people using mental health services and increasing their anxiety.

Over the past 10 days, we’ve been carrying out interviews with people in primary, secondary and inpatient mental health services across the U.K as part of our #MadCovidVoices project. So far, 14 people have given accounts of how the pandemic is affecting their mental health and their treatment. This is the first in a seriesContinue reading “Difficulties accessing, reviewing and monitoring medication during COVID19, is compromising the safety of people using mental health services and increasing their anxiety.”

Depression, as I had been dreading since the first few days of quarantine, has finally started settling in and it’s just as bad as I wished it wouldn’t be.

Emilie’s #MadCovidDiaries 23.4.2020 TW: Severe Depression As I write this, we are on day 39 of the quarantine here in France. I’ve started seeing people again, since most of us have been quarantining for over a month now. Pretty much, I’ve only seen my father who came to see me twice in the last coupleContinue reading “Depression, as I had been dreading since the first few days of quarantine, has finally started settling in and it’s just as bad as I wished it wouldn’t be.”

I was tempted to call the mental health duty desk this weekend but got put off by imagining exhausted care workers at the end of their tether, with yet another depressive soul.

Eva’s #MadCovidDiaries Diary 14.4.2020 02:31 TW: COVID, depression, suicide ‘Kintsugi’ means golden joinery. The Japanese art of taking broken crockery and joining it together again with gold. The repairs are visible, but that’s what makes them beautiful. Such a powerful metaphor to be taken from today’s therapy session. I’m lucky to have a therapist thatContinue reading “I was tempted to call the mental health duty desk this weekend but got put off by imagining exhausted care workers at the end of their tether, with yet another depressive soul.”

Loved ones all over the world, devastated. Hollowed out by grief. A world that no longer looks and feels the same.

Eva’s #MadCovidDiaries Diary 10.4.2020 TW: COVID, depression, suicide Nearly a month since lockdown. I’m getting too used to hiding away..No one forcing me to go out anywhere. No need to be anywhere. Heard my neighbors having a laugh as I sat by the window earlier. They were having what sounded like a party.  ‘Well I’mContinue reading “Loved ones all over the world, devastated. Hollowed out by grief. A world that no longer looks and feels the same.”

There is a numbness as if there’s a cloak covering the sharpness of everything. It feels like I’m seeing the world without my glasses on.

Eva’s #MadCovidDiaries Diary 8.4.2020 TW: COVID, Depression Third week in self-isolation/social distancing: Overall I have gone quiet and introspective. I like talking to people less, they inevitably ask that intimidating ‘how are you’ question. Do I lie? Do I tell the truth? At the moment I don’t know what the answer really is. I amContinue reading “There is a numbness as if there’s a cloak covering the sharpness of everything. It feels like I’m seeing the world without my glasses on.”

Time and life have changed into sand that’s slipping between my fingers.

Emilie’s #MadCovidDiaries 4.4.2020 TW: Self Harm As I set out to write this post, I realise I’m not on my second but on my third week of quarantine. I see on social media that people are still counting days, but I’m apparently starting to lose track of time. It was to be expected, I guess.Continue reading “Time and life have changed into sand that’s slipping between my fingers.”

Day 10 of lockdown: Fear

Charlotte’s #MadCovidDiaries Diary 2.4.20   Last time I wrote a #MadCovidDiaries entry I touched on feeling slightly abandoned by services since just before lockdown, even though in reality I can phone my CPN at any time during the working week. As the days have passed this feeling has only increased, in no small part becauseContinue reading “Day 10 of lockdown: Fear”

There is no normalcy to reality check against my unreality: There is reality in unreality.

Eva’s first #MadCovidDiaries Diary 31.3.2020 It has been fifteen days since I committed to self-isolation, social distancing or am I shielding? So many terms are flying about, it’s hard to keep up. Changes in the situation are spreading fast like the virus. The thing that terrifies me is catching it, I’m alone and feel likeContinue reading “There is no normalcy to reality check against my unreality: There is reality in unreality.”

Lockdown Week 1: A Mixed Bag

Charlotte’s first #MadCovidDiaries Diary 29.3.20 Hi, I’m Charlotte, I’m 45, I live with my husband and I have bipolar disorder with acute anxiety. This post contains a lot of references to exercise, so if this is triggering for you it might not be the best diary entry to read. It feels a bit weird toContinue reading “Lockdown Week 1: A Mixed Bag”

I realise now how essential real, physical contact is for mental wellbeing

Kate’s first #MadCovidDiaries Diary 28.3.20 I don’t know how long I’ve been isolating for now. It feels especially cruel to be forced into isolation at the exact point I was finally feeling well enough to rebuild a social life and get involved in the community again. Virtual hangouts; WhatsApp groups; online therapy – all ofContinue reading “I realise now how essential real, physical contact is for mental wellbeing”

How to survive the first week of quarantine: Emilie’s Top Tips

TW: COVID and its impact on mental health I was only planning on writing reflection pieces about how quarantine has been affecting me, but now that the U.K. (amongst others) has also been put into lockdown, I felt it was important to give others a few tips about how to survive the first week ofContinue reading “How to survive the first week of quarantine: Emilie’s Top Tips”