Love and Tesco: A simple act of care performed by people living, eating and surviving together, has acquired this vast significance.

Hope’s #MadCovidDiaries Tuesday 14.4.2020 My partner and I have avoided going into Tesco since the lockdown. (We have been eating a lot of beans and lentils. We ran out last week.) I volunteered to go in on Thursday. My partner went in today. Each of us waited outside while the other one was inside. There’sContinue reading “Love and Tesco: A simple act of care performed by people living, eating and surviving together, has acquired this vast significance.”

Routine mental health appointments are being cancelled in some parts of the UK

On the 25th of March, NHS England released guidance for mental health providers about how they should manage capacity and demand during the COVID pandemic.  It stated that… “COVID-19 and the national measures being announced to delay the spread of the pandemic will inevitably have significant impact on both demand for and capacity to deliverContinue reading “Routine mental health appointments are being cancelled in some parts of the UK”

Loved ones all over the world, devastated. Hollowed out by grief. A world that no longer looks and feels the same.

Eva’s #MadCovidDiaries Diary 10.4.2020 TW: COVID, depression, suicide Nearly a month since lockdown. I’m getting too used to hiding away..No one forcing me to go out anywhere. No need to be anywhere. Heard my neighbors having a laugh as I sat by the window earlier. They were having what sounded like a party.  ‘Well I’mContinue reading “Loved ones all over the world, devastated. Hollowed out by grief. A world that no longer looks and feels the same.”

Men and mental health: why we don’t engage much?

Here you can read Steve’s first #MadCovidDiaries Blog on the topic of men and mental health! You can see Steve’s amazing photography here. 14.4.2020: Men and mental health: why we don’t engage much? No doubt there are many reasons why this is: fear, isolation, embarrassment, awkwardness, uncertainty, lack of awareness. Without putting myself out thereContinue reading “Men and mental health: why we don’t engage much?”

Guilt: Why am I not feeling worse?

Jo’s fourth vlog is out now!  She talks about the long weekend being a challenge for her, especially with waiting to hear about whether she’ll be furloughed. She talks about feeling guilty, knowing that she is doing ok and others are struggling with their mental health. This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivativesContinue reading “Guilt: Why am I not feeling worse?”

I need surgery and I’m going to have to wait a long time for it thanks to the pandemic. There’s no support for my mental health over this whatsoever.

Human Bean’s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 3: April 6th to April 12th 2020  TW: Transphobia It’s been a bloody hard week. It was my birthday, which is always a bit weird at the best of times, mentally, emotionally. It’s Easter. I’d usually be seeing my family (which, OK, has it’s own challenges but I really missContinue reading “I need surgery and I’m going to have to wait a long time for it thanks to the pandemic. There’s no support for my mental health over this whatsoever.”

The pandemic and the lockdown are bringing pre-existing problems and anxieties into sharp, unrelenting focus, and I am weakened by them.

Hope’s #MadCovidDiary 7.4.2020 Things are starting to get worse for me. Yesterday was only the third time I left my flat since mid-March, and the first time for daily exercise. I am lucky to have an exercise bike in my flat which I have been using. Myself and my partner— who is being wonderful— haveContinue reading “The pandemic and the lockdown are bringing pre-existing problems and anxieties into sharp, unrelenting focus, and I am weakened by them.”

Right now, my anxiety is through the roof: I can feel it inside me at all times and I can see it in my racing thoughts and speech.

Sunitha’s First #MadCovidDiaries 9.4.2020  I thought I’d left behind the enormous amount of procrastination I have experienced in the last year or more, but with all this Covid-19 nonsense, I’ve been struggling a lot with it. Even just putting aside the time to do this has taken me days.  It’s strange how in the beginning,Continue reading “Right now, my anxiety is through the roof: I can feel it inside me at all times and I can see it in my racing thoughts and speech.”

It feels so absurd to sit at home and do activities like this isn’t the apocalypse.

Jess’s First #MadCovidDiaries 9.4.2020 (Jess lives in the US) I have to admit I’ve been struggling lately. I know I’m not alone in that feeling, but solidarity from afar doesn’t make it much easier. I’ve been trying to stay busy, but I also know I’m not sleeping enough. The season change and the big change inContinue reading “It feels so absurd to sit at home and do activities like this isn’t the apocalypse.”

There is a numbness as if there’s a cloak covering the sharpness of everything. It feels like I’m seeing the world without my glasses on.

Eva’s #MadCovidDiaries Diary 8.4.2020 TW: COVID, Depression Third week in self-isolation/social distancing: Overall I have gone quiet and introspective. I like talking to people less, they inevitably ask that intimidating ‘how are you’ question. Do I lie? Do I tell the truth? At the moment I don’t know what the answer really is. I amContinue reading “There is a numbness as if there’s a cloak covering the sharpness of everything. It feels like I’m seeing the world without my glasses on.”

I’m feeling quite tired and sad this week. I still feel like I’m in the midst of grief over everything and there’s more to come.

Human Bean’s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 2: March 30th to April 5th 2020  I decide in the morning when I’m just getting up, whether I’ll go outside today. In the garden or out for a walk, I choose normal socks for fitting in shoes or big fluffy socks, for staying indoors all day.  I keep havingContinue reading “I’m feeling quite tired and sad this week. I still feel like I’m in the midst of grief over everything and there’s more to come.”

I’ve got a bit of fire in my belly today!

Jo’s third vlog is out now!  She updates us on her activities this week at the food bank, and the progress of the #MadCovid hardship fund which is getting more and more applications. Jo highlights that Wales does not have a vulnerable list like England to allow people like her Mum to have priority shoppingContinue reading “I’ve got a bit of fire in my belly today!”

Society told me I was wrong, that my thoughts needed to be changed. Now, society lives in fear and practices all the things that go on in my mind.

Kimberley’s First #MadCovidDiaries 3.4.2020 Here’s something that took me a while to accept – when the Coronavirus pandemic started to take hold of the UK and the behaviour of society drastically changed, I felt angry.  To some extend, I’m ashamed to say that. But let me explain. As the UK saw cases of COVID-19 soar,Continue reading “Society told me I was wrong, that my thoughts needed to be changed. Now, society lives in fear and practices all the things that go on in my mind.”

Everyone’s sharing (to some degree), a similar kind of psychological pain.

Hope’s #MadCovidDiary 2.4.2020 I have been avoiding going into town since I went to the doctor’s a week and a half ago. Today I had to go to the pharmacy for a prescription. There were hardly any people in town and I hadn’t anticipated how strange it would look for the bus station to beContinue reading “Everyone’s sharing (to some degree), a similar kind of psychological pain.”

Day 10 of lockdown: Fear

Charlotte’s #MadCovidDiaries Diary 2.4.20   Last time I wrote a #MadCovidDiaries entry I touched on feeling slightly abandoned by services since just before lockdown, even though in reality I can phone my CPN at any time during the working week. As the days have passed this feeling has only increased, in no small part becauseContinue reading “Day 10 of lockdown: Fear”

Immy’s first #MadCovidDiaries vlog is out now!

Immy has recently come home after being on a specialist deaf mental health ward. She talks about unexpectedly coming out of hospital after two years, what it’s like suddenly moving from a deaf to a hearing environment and the challenges of speaking to your mental health team on FaceTime. Immy also reflects how lack ofContinue reading “Immy’s first #MadCovidDiaries vlog is out now!”

Am I the only one that gave myself social burnout in week one of a lockdown?

Human Bean’s first #MadCovidDiaries Diary Week 1: March 23rd to March 29th 2020 This week I went way over the top with socialising online. I think I threw myself into it because it made stuff accessible to me that I couldn’t manage to get to otherwise. Am I the only one that gave myself socialContinue reading “Am I the only one that gave myself social burnout in week one of a lockdown?”

There is no normalcy to reality check against my unreality: There is reality in unreality.

Eva’s first #MadCovidDiaries Diary 31.3.2020 It has been fifteen days since I committed to self-isolation, social distancing or am I shielding? So many terms are flying about, it’s hard to keep up. Changes in the situation are spreading fast like the virus. The thing that terrifies me is catching it, I’m alone and feel likeContinue reading “There is no normalcy to reality check against my unreality: There is reality in unreality.”

Jo’s second #MadCovidDiaries vlog is out now!

Our fantastic Jo’s second vlog is out now!  She talks about her own experiences of OCD and others and the support available online for people who are in similar circumstances.  To end she tells us that the #MadCovid Hardship Fund has exceeded £5000 in donations! This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0Continue reading “Jo’s second #MadCovidDiaries vlog is out now!”

First Times

This #MadCovidDiary is a reblog from @MyNewMummyLife’s awesome blog! I remember the first time I took my son to the park, Seeing the huge smile on his face when he discovered the joy of the swings. I remember the first time he felt confident enough to try out the slide, Seeing the excitement in hisContinue reading “First Times”