Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 3.8.2020 I’m back home and for the first time in a long time, it really felt like coming home. Of course, I experience anxiety here, lying awake in the middle of the night thinking the house noises means someone might be in the house or the depression clouding over me because I can’tContinue reading “In this pandemic world, I have had moments of crisis but my past experiences really made me reluctant to reach out for help.”
Before COVID there were so many places I could have gone if I wanted to. Did I waste the chance? No. Let’s face it, I never had the spoons.
Human Bean’s #MadCovidDiaries, Week 20: August 3rd to August 9th
Heather’s #MadCovidDiaries 2.8.2020 My grandparents have lived in Bradford all their life. Grandma worked on the glove counter of Brown and Muffs; which sounds like a euphemism but was a department store that formed part of her glamorous career girl history. Grandad’s father was a music hall pianist, he liked to fill a bath tubContinue reading “I have a couple of five word slogans for you, Boris; The North is fierce hearted. We won’t be divided now. We choose justice and peace over lies.”
As a meme I saw recently said: all lifting lockdown means is that there’s space for you in ICU now.
Human Bean’s #MadCovidDiaries, Week 19: July 27th – August 2nd
Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 27.7.2020 I’m back at my parents’ house for the first time this year and it’s been almost six months since I last saw them. Whilst I am mostly enjoying the experience, I also feel incredibly overwhelmed today and really feel like I haven’t had the space to decompress without them. The last coupleContinue reading “When I consume news stories or social media, the world ending in my lifetime feels like an inevitable reality.”
I feel like this’ll never be ‘over’ and the future just melts together.
What if there is no “after covid”?
Human Bean’s #MadCovidDiaries, Week 18: July 20th to July 26th
Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 20.7.2020 I’ve finally got some time off for the next two weeks and especially this week, I am going to focus on having time for myself. I have recognised that burn out for me is something that happens even when I have the best intentions ; it has as much to do withContinue reading “Returning back to normal isn’t really an option…I am considering all sorts of things that seemed impossible to me before. I want to live in a world that considers all the diverse needs of individuals in its society.”
Jo’s #MadCovidDiaries 20.7.2020 Jo’s 18th vlog is out now! Jo vlogs from the foodbank this week. She talks about her work and the importance of volunteering to her mental health. If you’ve enjoyed this vlog, please consider donating to our Hardship Fund for people with a mental health condition who are in financial need duringContinue reading “There’s something special about volunteering.”
I feel so annoyed that many of my friends think people like me are being too anxious and just need help to be less afraid. I feel that I have an accurate view of the COVID risk and they have kidded themselves into being less afraid because they want to “get back to normal”.
It’s time to rest and I find that hard to do when there is so much to do and people – my people, my peers – are being abandoned by this government.
Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 14.7.2020 I sat down to write the last few days and felt little to no motivation as there was too much going on in my head. Even today, I feel a little conflicted and confused. One part of me is super excited as I will be seeing my parents in a few weeks’Continue reading “These are unprecedented times so I constantly have to focus on being kind to myself but that requires a lot of rewiring.”
Michelle‘s @DyslxicRant’s #MadCovidDiaries Michelle has been creating vlogs about her experiences of COVID19 during Lockdown. Here you can catch up on some! We hope to feature more of Michelle’s work over the next few weeks. This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License. We ask that you seek our permission beforeContinue reading “I’m in quarantine. It’s not a good place to be, because its scary, plagues are scary. Government needs to take responsibility for putting our lives in danger.”
Human Bean’s #MadCovidDiaries, Week 16: July 6th to July 12th TW: Cancer I came out to my mum as non binary this week. I also told a few more people about my plans to change my name. I feel really silly about it (internalised transphobia or a hangover from being stigmatised for BPD shifts inContinue reading “I feel like we’re living in such a brutal world and I didn’t even have the resilience to cope with the old one let alone this.”
Jo’s #MadCovidDiaries 16.7.2020 Jo’s 17th vlog is out now! Jo speaks about having difficulty sleeping at the moment, which is a big warning sign for her. She also reflects on all the things she has to do just to stay well and the big decisions she’s had to take in life to stay well. She’sContinue reading “There are lots of things I can’t do. I don’t get to drink, I don’t get to miss sleep…I’ve had to make big decisions about my life.”
‘I’ve coped with lockdown pretty damn well, so can you stop calling me emotionally unstable now?’
@lucywriter’s #madcoviddiaries, 06.07.20
Human Bean‘s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 13: June 15th to June 21st TW: iatrogenic trauma, ableism It’s diary day. I don’t feel like talking today. I guess that’s a good reason to have a set day to update, it’s more representative of my mood than if I just updated when I felt like it. Looong exhale. Continue reading “Health professionals get frustrated with me and misinterpret my attempts at communication. The thought of talking to a doctor now brings a wave of panic because my experience this year has been so terrible.”
Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 7.7.2020 What a difference two weeks make? In the last ten days, it’s been a rollercoaster of unexpected life events, which has left me feeling both super hopeful and super anxious. The most prominent item is that I am now getting paid for some work that I was previously doing as voluntary. It’llContinue reading “The trigger for a lot of my difficulties in the Coronavirus crisis has been the feeling of the unknown, which hasn’t been helped by the lack of leadership from the government.”
Human Bean‘s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 15: June 29th to July 5th Well, after my post last week saying nothing will change for us, we made a spur of the moment decision to come on a trip. I’ll explain. The rules changed on Saturday 4th July to say you are allowed to visit family overnight. SinceContinue reading “It’s kind of interesting but grim to see how the soaps are dealing with covid 19. It’s weird how seeing something fictionalised can make a thing feel more real.”
Human Bean‘s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 14: June 22nd to June 28th Do you ever look back at your past self and think wow, I was a real person in the world: I wore that red dress in Italy, I kissed that girl, in a way that you don’t feel real in your life now orContinue reading “The transition out of lockdown is causing me a lot of anxiety. The risk is still there but now we’re being asked to act like it isn’t. It was a decision made for the economy and not for keeping people safe.”
Jo’s #MadCovidDiaries 29.6.2020 Jo’s 15th vlog is out now! Jo reflects on her friendships and relationships with others, as someone who is in a long-term relationship. She gives us an update about the #MadCovidFund which is nearly at 20K! If you’ve enjoyed this vlog, please consider donating to our Hardship Fund for people with aContinue reading “The #MadCovidFund is nearly at 20K!”