Health professionals get frustrated with me and misinterpret my attempts at communication. The thought of talking to a doctor now brings a wave of panic because my experience this year has been so terrible.

Human Bean‘s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 13: June 15th to June 21st TW: iatrogenic trauma, ableism  It’s diary day. I don’t feel like talking today. I guess that’s a good reason to have a set day to update, it’s more representative of my mood than if I just updated when I felt like it.  Looong exhale. Continue reading “Health professionals get frustrated with me and misinterpret my attempts at communication. The thought of talking to a doctor now brings a wave of panic because my experience this year has been so terrible.”

The trigger for a lot of my difficulties in the Coronavirus crisis has been the feeling of the unknown, which hasn’t been helped by the lack of leadership from the government.

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 7.7.2020  What a difference two weeks make? In the last ten days, it’s been a rollercoaster of unexpected life events, which has left me feeling both super hopeful and super anxious. The most prominent item is that I am now getting paid for some work that I was previously doing as voluntary. It’llContinue reading “The trigger for a lot of my difficulties in the Coronavirus crisis has been the feeling of the unknown, which hasn’t been helped by the lack of leadership from the government.”

Brave New World? #14

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 8.7.2020 Tony adds his 14th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. Photos from the Belper Moo’s This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License.Continue reading “Brave New World? #14”

It’s kind of interesting but grim to see how the soaps are dealing with covid 19. It’s weird how seeing something fictionalised can make a thing feel more real.

Human Bean‘s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 15: June 29th to July 5th Well, after my post last week saying nothing will change for us, we made a spur of the moment decision to come on a trip. I’ll explain.  The rules changed on Saturday 4th July to say you are allowed to visit family overnight. SinceContinue reading “It’s kind of interesting but grim to see how the soaps are dealing with covid 19. It’s weird how seeing something fictionalised can make a thing feel more real.”

The transition out of lockdown is causing me a lot of anxiety. The risk is still there but now we’re being asked to act like it isn’t. It was a decision made for the economy and not for keeping people safe.

Human Bean‘s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 14: June 22nd to June 28th  Do you ever look back at your past self and think wow, I was a real person in the world: I wore that red dress in Italy, I kissed that girl, in a way that you don’t feel real in your life now orContinue reading “The transition out of lockdown is causing me a lot of anxiety. The risk is still there but now we’re being asked to act like it isn’t. It was a decision made for the economy and not for keeping people safe.”

The #MadCovidFund is nearly at 20K!

Jo’s #MadCovidDiaries 29.6.2020 Jo’s 15th vlog is out now!  Jo reflects on her friendships and relationships with others, as someone who is in a long-term relationship. She gives us an update about the #MadCovidFund which is nearly at 20K! If you’ve enjoyed this vlog, please consider donating to our Hardship Fund for people with aContinue reading “The #MadCovidFund is nearly at 20K!”

Since lockdown began, my bright, carefree, sociable girl has had her life turned upside down. Her bedroom is her classroom; her schoolwork set online.

Lucy’s #MadCovidDiaries 25.6.2020  She’s not a talker, my nine-year-old daughter. Not about her feelings, anyway. Even when she was in Reception, her teacher commented on how she never cried. ‘Sometimes I can see she really wants to,’ she said, ‘but she won’t let herself.’ She’s like me in that respect. I grew up keeping myContinue reading “Since lockdown began, my bright, carefree, sociable girl has had her life turned upside down. Her bedroom is her classroom; her schoolwork set online.”

Brave New World? #13

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 26.6.2020 Tony adds his 13th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. This week, Tony has been making more masks from his photos! Photos from the Belper Moo’s OnContinue reading “Brave New World? #13”

Identifying with, and belonging to groups is important to me

Jo’s #MadCovidDiaries 22.6.2020 Jo’s 14th vlog is out now!  If you’ve enjoyed this vlog, please consider donating to our Hardship Fund for people with a mental health condition who are in financial need during COVID19. Mad Covid is an entirely unfunded group. This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License. WeContinue reading “Identifying with, and belonging to groups is important to me”

Brave New World? #12

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 20.6.2020 Tony adds his 12th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. This week Tony became a grandfather – CONGRATUALTIONS Tony and family! Understandably, Tony he has had lessContinue reading “Brave New World? #12”

If they kick me out of services, so be it, but I’m done with therapy – especially Covid-friendly Zoom therapy.

Lucy‘s #MadCovidDiaries 18.6.2020  TW: Self harm Therapy in the time of Covid Throughout the years I’ve been under mental health services, I’ve been through many courses of therapy. None of them have proven particularly helpful, and nor did I expect them to. I firmly believe that my mental illness is down to screwy brain chemicalsContinue reading “If they kick me out of services, so be it, but I’m done with therapy – especially Covid-friendly Zoom therapy.”

A Mother’s Love

By Ginny Mata @ginnymata 15.6.2020 Today’s been a really rough day.  I couldn’t bring myself to eat anything at all. I was determined to spend the rest of the day feeling miserable, to fold into myself, to will myself to disappear.  But just now, when I opened my bedroom door, on the table, there wereContinue reading “A Mother’s Love”

I am having increasing anxiety about the state of the world, about covid, about the treatment of black people and trans people.

Human Bean‘s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 12: June 9th to June 14th TW: discussion of racism and transphobia, medical issues.  Gosh, what an emotionally laborious week it has been. Difficult conversations with people about race (which is fine, that’s my responsibility as a white person) and difficult conversations with people about transphobia.  I’m non binary andContinue reading “I am having increasing anxiety about the state of the world, about covid, about the treatment of black people and trans people.”

I really miss hugging people

Jo’s #MadCovidDiaries 15.6.2020 Jo’s 13th vlog is out now!  Jo reflects on the previous week which has been difficult. She talks about her friend who has recently died and the emotional labour that goes into Zoom and Skype meetings. Jo misses her family and friend and her dog in particular! Jo did another diary entryContinue reading “I really miss hugging people”

It’s been an intense couple of weeks in the context of world events.

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 15.6.2020  It’s been an intense couple of weeks in the context of world events. It almost feels like it doesn’t feel as important to focus on Covid with the current events happening. Discussing what’s been happening in my life the last few weeks has also seemed unimportant given the situation in the USContinue reading “It’s been an intense couple of weeks in the context of world events.”

You have never acknowledged or apologised for the harm you caused me.

  Ellie‘s #MadCovidDiaries #Midnight Waffles 15.6.2020 It’s hard to know where to start. I guess as good a place as any is to admit quarantine has not been easy. For the last month or so I’ve felt unable to articulate what I’m thinking or feeling, to myself as much as anyone else. I’ve felt unsettled, I can’tContinue reading “You have never acknowledged or apologised for the harm you caused me.”

Brave New World? #11

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 12.6.2020 Tony adds his 11th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. This week Tony’s work has been featured on Radio Nottingham: And, Tony received an honourable mention inContinue reading “Brave New World? #11”

Rather than lockdown, we’re in limbo

Lucy’s #MadCovidDiaries 10.6.2020  @lucywriter As Covid-19 restrictions slowly ease, I find myself wondering whether we’re still in lockdown. In some ways, it no longer feels like lockdown now I can see my friends and family (albeit at a 2m distance and not on a rainy day unless we’re willing to get drenched in the park),Continue reading “Rather than lockdown, we’re in limbo”

You’re not a Mental Health Activist in any sense if you’re not intersectional

Jo’s #MadCovidDiaries 8.6.2020 Jo’s 12th vlog is out now!  If you’ve enjoyed this vlog, please consider donating to our Hardship Fund for people with a mental health condition who are in financial need during COVID19. Mad Covid is an entirely unfunded group. This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License. WeContinue reading “You’re not a Mental Health Activist in any sense if you’re not intersectional”

I’m white and feel like I have a responsibility to do everything I can to educate myself and others and make changes happen wherever I can. Black lives matter. 🖤

Human Bean‘s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 11: June 1st to June 7th I didn’t manage self therapy this week. My partner was working and I had to take care of the kids so it didn’t happen. I will make sure it happens in the coming week so I don’t lose the habit. I’m quite annoyed thatContinue reading “I’m white and feel like I have a responsibility to do everything I can to educate myself and others and make changes happen wherever I can. Black lives matter. 🖤”