No room at the inn: it’s not as simple as just asking for help

@Outdoorperscrip #MadCovidDiaries – 11th of April 2021 TW: Eating disorders, suicide, suicide methods It’s taken me around 4 months since I left hospital to feel able to write this. Part of me was desperate for the involved services that treated me to acknowledge how their treatment wasn’t helpful and put me at risk. I madeContinue reading “No room at the inn: it’s not as simple as just asking for help”

I feel the fear of this never going away. I feel the fear of the impact of the actions of others on us all.

@Outdoorperscrip #MadCovidDiaries – 6th of October 2020 Content warning: Why do I find it so difficult when people break rules? I know it’s something I’ve always struggled with. It’s made me unpopular in work settings when I’ve pulled people up on not doing things properly or rule breaking. I’ve often worked in settings where theContinue reading “I feel the fear of this never going away. I feel the fear of the impact of the actions of others on us all.”

I miss connecting with others in person and I fear for a disconnected future, where those of us with disabilities feel excluded from society.

@outdoorperscrip’s #MadCovidDiaries 14.9.2020  What usually helps you when you’re feeling like this? This is possibly one of the most used sentences in mental health support. I wonder how many patients have suddenly found the answer to their distress is solved by that one simple question? I’ve been asked it a few times lately and toContinue reading “I miss connecting with others in person and I fear for a disconnected future, where those of us with disabilities feel excluded from society.”

I hit refresh on the BBC news website for the 20th time in a row. My partner tells me to stop obsessing but I can’t help it. This is how I have been throughout lockdown.

@outdoorperscrip‘s #MadCovidDiaries 18.8.2020  I hit refresh on the BBC news website for the 20th time in a row. My partner tells me to stop obsessing but I can’t help it. This is how I have been throughout lockdown. My reason for obsessing on this occasion was due to the A Level results disaster. My daughterContinue reading “I hit refresh on the BBC news website for the 20th time in a row. My partner tells me to stop obsessing but I can’t help it. This is how I have been throughout lockdown.”

Virtual Mental Health Support in COVID19: I worry that digital technology is being seen as an acceptable alternative, rather than the temporary ‘make do’ solution that it was initially intended to be.

Virtual mental health support in Covid 19 @outdoorprescrip‘s #MadCovidDiaries 8.7.2020 – this is a reblog from their fantastic blog I am one of the lucky ones. I’ve received support during Covid-19 virtually. I appreciate I am lucky to have received any support at all as I know many have had nothing. A virtual interaction this weekContinue reading “Virtual Mental Health Support in COVID19: I worry that digital technology is being seen as an acceptable alternative, rather than the temporary ‘make do’ solution that it was initially intended to be.”

My stress bucket has felt like an ember, turning into a smouldering fire and yesterday finally turning into an explosion.

@outdoorperscrip‘s #MadCovidDiaries 6.5.2020 The explosion of the stress bucket So yesterday things sort of unravelled. In mental health services they often like to talk about the stress bucket, how it fills up and you need to find ways of making holes in it to let the water out to stop it from overflowing. Recently my stressContinue reading “My stress bucket has felt like an ember, turning into a smouldering fire and yesterday finally turning into an explosion.”

Each week I am having to adjust the food I buy to follow my meal plan. This becomes more complicated when items have been panic bought.

It often feels like I am spending my whole time thinking about food, figuring out how to get items, how to cope with challenging changes to my meal plan and worrying about running out of things. TW: Anorexia, restraint, suicide, detention, benzodiazepine withdrawal   @outdoorperscrip’s #MadCovidDiaries 27.4.2020 I sit on my sofa and refresh the TescoContinue reading “Each week I am having to adjust the food I buy to follow my meal plan. This becomes more complicated when items have been panic bought.”