My treatment journey through Madness.

The distress, Madness, disorder, illness – call it what you will – we go through can be helped. We can learn to live skilfully but so many don’t get the chance. I was recently asked what type of therapy I did for Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) and how the early period of discovery of ourContinue reading “My treatment journey through Madness.”

The transition out of lockdown is causing me a lot of anxiety. The risk is still there but now we’re being asked to act like it isn’t. It was a decision made for the economy and not for keeping people safe.

Human Bean‘s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 14: June 22nd to June 28th  Do you ever look back at your past self and think wow, I was a real person in the world: I wore that red dress in Italy, I kissed that girl, in a way that you don’t feel real in your life now orContinue reading “The transition out of lockdown is causing me a lot of anxiety. The risk is still there but now we’re being asked to act like it isn’t. It was a decision made for the economy and not for keeping people safe.”

Sunsets

Steve’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 1.7.2020 Steve shares some more of his amazing collection of photographs on the topic ‘Sunsets’! He’s happy to receive suggestions about photo topics – he has a big collection of photographs he’d like to share with everyone.  Thank you Steve :  ) This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0Continue reading “Sunsets”

The assessment didn’t last long. I was still certain I would be home soon. I was wrong. They had sectioned me.

Alison L’s #MadCovidDiaries, 22.06.20 Crisis After Crisis, This Time Covid-19 Sent Things In The Wrong Direction TW: Mentions self-harm and suicide. *Names of staff have been changed Bex the Mental Health Nurse from the homebased treatment team was sat in my living room asking me if I would consider a voluntary hospital admission. It wasContinue reading “The assessment didn’t last long. I was still certain I would be home soon. I was wrong. They had sectioned me.”

The #MadCovidFund is nearly at 20K!

Jo’s #MadCovidDiaries 29.6.2020 Jo’s 15th vlog is out now!  Jo reflects on her friendships and relationships with others, as someone who is in a long-term relationship. She gives us an update about the #MadCovidFund which is nearly at 20K! If you’ve enjoyed this vlog, please consider donating to our Hardship Fund for people with aContinue reading “The #MadCovidFund is nearly at 20K!”

Since lockdown began, my bright, carefree, sociable girl has had her life turned upside down. Her bedroom is her classroom; her schoolwork set online.

Lucy’s #MadCovidDiaries 25.6.2020  She’s not a talker, my nine-year-old daughter. Not about her feelings, anyway. Even when she was in Reception, her teacher commented on how she never cried. ‘Sometimes I can see she really wants to,’ she said, ‘but she won’t let herself.’ She’s like me in that respect. I grew up keeping myContinue reading “Since lockdown began, my bright, carefree, sociable girl has had her life turned upside down. Her bedroom is her classroom; her schoolwork set online.”

Brave New World? #13

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 26.6.2020 Tony adds his 13th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. This week, Tony has been making more masks from his photos! Photos from the Belper Moo’s OnContinue reading “Brave New World? #13”

I Was Recovering Before the Pandemic but Now I’m Stark Raving Mad

@tentaeminty’s #MadCovidDiaries, 21.06.20 I Was Recovering Before the Pandemic but Now I’m Stark Raving Mad – And It’s Not the Virus Please note that this article has old lockdown rules within it; this was written over a time period where the rules were changing. Please look up the current lockdown rules for your area. I’veContinue reading “I Was Recovering Before the Pandemic but Now I’m Stark Raving Mad”

Anorexia recovery prepared me for this pandemic, our young people need support to get through.

An anonymous #MadCovidDiaries, 21.06.20 TW: Eating disorders When I was 15 and busily preparing for my GCSEs, I was diagnosed with anorexia. I was scared, I was lost, but I was going into school. A teacher alerted myself and my family to the fact that anorexia was a problem for me. The teacher linked usContinue reading “Anorexia recovery prepared me for this pandemic, our young people need support to get through.”

I’m sad that mental illness has made me so unwell and things have got so much harder since lock-down. I’m sad that I can’t remember a time where I could just sit and relax…

Anonymous’ #MadCovidDiaries, 21.06.20 TW: References to self-harm, including methods, discussed throughout. Why has it taken walking around the hospital grounds at night to make me feel sad? It’s just gone 11pm Tuesday night and I’m walking around the local hospital grounds. Mum’s waiting in the carpark, I’m not a patient – not yet anyway, IContinue reading “I’m sad that mental illness has made me so unwell and things have got so much harder since lock-down. I’m sad that I can’t remember a time where I could just sit and relax…”

Every time I read the news or Twitter, I recognise that we have such a long way to go…sometimes I feel like all I want to do is pack my bags, go home and retreat from society.

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries, 23.06.20 CW: Mentions self harm and alcohol briefly Today, I feel indecisive on how to start writing this. For me, I am struggling with a whole host of internal worries and fears, which makes me think what I really need now is help. You know when you’ve experienced long term mental health illnesses,Continue reading “Every time I read the news or Twitter, I recognise that we have such a long way to go…sometimes I feel like all I want to do is pack my bags, go home and retreat from society.”

Identifying with, and belonging to groups is important to me

Jo’s #MadCovidDiaries 22.6.2020 Jo’s 14th vlog is out now!  If you’ve enjoyed this vlog, please consider donating to our Hardship Fund for people with a mental health condition who are in financial need during COVID19. Mad Covid is an entirely unfunded group. This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License. WeContinue reading “Identifying with, and belonging to groups is important to me”

Brave New World? #12

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 20.6.2020 Tony adds his 12th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. This week Tony became a grandfather – CONGRATUALTIONS Tony and family! Understandably, Tony he has had lessContinue reading “Brave New World? #12”

If they kick me out of services, so be it, but I’m done with therapy – especially Covid-friendly Zoom therapy.

Lucy’s #MadCovidDiaries 18.6.2020  TW: Self harm Therapy in the time of Covid Throughout the years I’ve been under mental health services, I’ve been through many courses of therapy. None of them have proven particularly helpful, and nor did I expect them to. I firmly believe that my mental illness is down to screwy brain chemicalsContinue reading “If they kick me out of services, so be it, but I’m done with therapy – especially Covid-friendly Zoom therapy.”

Animals

Steve’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 18.6.2020 Steve shares some more of his amazing collection of photographs on the topic ‘Animals’! He’s happy to receive suggestions about photo topics – he has a big collection of photographs he’d like to share with everyone.  Thank you Steve :  ) This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0Continue reading “Animals”

A Mother’s Love

By Ginny Mata @ginnymata 15.6.2020 Today’s been a really rough day.  I couldn’t bring myself to eat anything at all. I was determined to spend the rest of the day feeling miserable, to fold into myself, to will myself to disappear.  But just now, when I opened my bedroom door, on the table, there wereContinue reading “A Mother’s Love”

I am having increasing anxiety about the state of the world, about covid, about the treatment of black people and trans people.

Human Bean‘s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 12: June 9th to June 14th TW: discussion of racism and transphobia, medical issues.  Gosh, what an emotionally laborious week it has been. Difficult conversations with people about race (which is fine, that’s my responsibility as a white person) and difficult conversations with people about transphobia.  I’m non binary andContinue reading “I am having increasing anxiety about the state of the world, about covid, about the treatment of black people and trans people.”

I really miss hugging people

Jo’s #MadCovidDiaries 15.6.2020 Jo’s 13th vlog is out now!  Jo reflects on the previous week which has been difficult. She talks about her friend who has recently died and the emotional labour that goes into Zoom and Skype meetings. Jo misses her family and friend and her dog in particular! Jo did another diary entryContinue reading “I really miss hugging people”

It’s been an intense couple of weeks in the context of world events.

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 15.6.2020  It’s been an intense couple of weeks in the context of world events. It almost feels like it doesn’t feel as important to focus on Covid with the current events happening. Discussing what’s been happening in my life the last few weeks has also seemed unimportant given the situation in the USContinue reading “It’s been an intense couple of weeks in the context of world events.”

You have never acknowledged or apologised for the harm you caused me.

  Ellie’s #MadCovidDiaries #Midnight Waffles 15.6.2020 It’s hard to know where to start. I guess as good a place as any is to admit quarantine has not been easy. For the last month or so I’ve felt unable to articulate what I’m thinking or feeling, to myself as much as anyone else. I’ve felt unsettled, I can’tContinue reading “You have never acknowledged or apologised for the harm you caused me.”